依然还不能适应一个人的生活。就像是少了点什么。
回到宿舍以后一个人洗澡一个人吃饭，也没有人陪我饭后散步。
闷到发慌的时候只好看戏，常常看到一半思绪飘到远远的，然后把不知道剧情发展到哪里的戏关掉。刚才上完课去找了FYP的supervisor，东西了解到一半。。很担心自己没能做好，真的很恐惧。明早还要去找她呢。。
超想念颖的！不知道她training怎样了，希望一切顺利，这个sem赶快过，快点让我毕业~~
让妈妈担心了，我这几天都没什么胃口，都还硬把食物往嘴里塞，吃进去也没什么味道，随便拉。一个人真的什么都无所谓了，随便就好。
Monday, May 30, 2011
Thursday, May 26, 2011
记事
回来以后想动手写的，无奈昨晚累得很，网页打开了脑袋里空空什么都写不出，只好拖到现在。和阿祥约了chin lin在靠海的mamak档吃晚餐，塞车到那里我们迟了二十分钟吧。。。还出现了神秘嘉宾，merissa 跟着chin lin出来了 :))
四个人还吃了不少，tomyam 海鲜 ikan bakar 炸sotong 咸鱼炒芥兰。。。
人与人之间的交情不都是这样。半年前大家或许还很熟略，毕竟每天都得在公司碰面，一起工作一起吃饭，难免会把自己身边大大小小的事都搬出来聊。隔着的六个月，却足以把这一切都毁灭。
虽然，虽然。我们没有变得像陌生人，却隐藏不了言语中的生硬和小心翼翼。大家都很怕静下来，会因为没有话题而感觉尴尬，所以都尽量装做很自然地在让谈话延伸。如果我没有主动去联络，祥也不会踏出这一步，大概也就不会再见面了。
我真的很想他们，也很想念那段回不去的日子。或许以后我会在那里工作，但情况已经不一样了，我不再是trainee也没有人会在身边一直督促着，那是回不去的过去，也因为这样，它在我心中变得更加美好。会有这股冲动回去探望他们，的确是想保持联系，它们都是好人，是视野广阔的好人，是可以成为好朋友好老师的人。
突然很想一个人走走看看，那会是怎样的感觉？
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Something Complicated
LOVE, like rain, can nourish from above, drenching couples with a soaking joy. But sometimes, under the angry heat of life, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots, keeping itself alive. -- Mitch Albom.
People all around the world find love, as if it were an object hidden behind, as if it were very precious that all reach for it quickly when it comes, instinctively, as if grabbing for a falling object. But love takes many forms, and it never the same for any man and woman. I think I heard this before, that those in love are selfish, impatient and little bit insecure..All because they care for each other. Is that what people seeking for? Something that we hardly find in reality.Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you more courage.
This is what carry on in one way. With what love gifts us, it takes away something as well. love makes us vulnerable, couldn't afford even a little hurting.
Just something, simple yet complicated, something yet to be find out... ..In my dream.
People all around the world find love, as if it were an object hidden behind, as if it were very precious that all reach for it quickly when it comes, instinctively, as if grabbing for a falling object. But love takes many forms, and it never the same for any man and woman. I think I heard this before, that those in love are selfish, impatient and little bit insecure..All because they care for each other. Is that what people seeking for? Something that we hardly find in reality.Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you more courage.
This is what carry on in one way. With what love gifts us, it takes away something as well. love makes us vulnerable, couldn't afford even a little hurting.
Just something, simple yet complicated, something yet to be find out... ..In my dream.
Friday, May 20, 2011
小假
怎么说？？
因为人家都三个月暑假寒假，UTAR只有两三个星期，故称小假。=_=
说实在我很无奈，才这么短一个假，休息嘛也不对学习嘛也不对要出去打个散工又不对！
所以当我每天用心思考这个问题，时间溜达走掉了。。。
所以当假期晚了即将开学，我哭丧着脸祈求上天给我多两个星期休息。。。
所以当上课时间到了我们都聚在一起讨论不是别的就是臭骂大学太短的假期还没开始休息就要继续前进真是没人性。。。
所以当骂喊声停止时，就是我们大家毕业的时候吧？
好那赶快。。。请赶快！
因为我真的开始受不了这种重复性又累人又讨厌的颠三倒四的生活了。都变得有点罗嗦起来，变成怨妇怎么办？真是疯了 \ O /
绕回来，看看我这个败家的这次又干了些什么：
1。看了两部西片，还真不错：Thor ，Pirates of Caribbean。
2。两双鞋，忘了照相 LOL
3。一件连身裙。
4。忘了叫什么好象是U-Soya。入口绵绵的，虽说是纯Soya bean制作但牛奶口感很重，雪糕整体上没有很冰凉解暑，反而给人很saturated的感觉，吃完整杯我连午饭都剩下了。RM2.50/cup
4。Kim Gary-蜜糖柚子茶：除了有点太甜以外，个人觉得柚子皮还蛮好吃的，值得尝试！RM4.20/cup
5。去了怡保太平玩足两天，还参观了sepetang有名的货摊制作厂，最后在kuala kurau吃海鲜大餐。照片不在我这，下次po上来 …谢谢阿佳和家人热情款待，那晚我们吃下大得吓人的虾姑和螃蟹,撑着圆鼓鼓的肚子回家 =P
6。又去了QB新开张的tutti frutti：vanilla很不值，和平常外面吃到的没两样，RM1.00就可以买得到的McD cone更值得。其他的还不错，cransberry还有yogurt口味都很好吃。
今天mummy生日，生日快乐妈！！ I LOVE YOU muacksssssss!
因为人家都三个月暑假寒假，UTAR只有两三个星期，故称小假。=_=
说实在我很无奈，才这么短一个假，休息嘛也不对学习嘛也不对要出去打个散工又不对！
所以当我每天用心思考这个问题，时间溜达走掉了。。。
所以当假期晚了即将开学，我哭丧着脸祈求上天给我多两个星期休息。。。
所以当上课时间到了我们都聚在一起讨论不是别的就是臭骂大学太短的假期还没开始休息就要继续前进真是没人性。。。
所以当骂喊声停止时，就是我们大家毕业的时候吧？
好那赶快。。。请赶快！
因为我真的开始受不了这种重复性又累人又讨厌的颠三倒四的生活了。都变得有点罗嗦起来，变成怨妇怎么办？真是疯了 \ O /
绕回来，看看我这个败家的这次又干了些什么：
1。看了两部西片，还真不错：Thor ，Pirates of Caribbean。
2。两双鞋，忘了照相 LOL
3。一件连身裙。
4。忘了叫什么好象是U-Soya。入口绵绵的，虽说是纯Soya bean制作但牛奶口感很重，雪糕整体上没有很冰凉解暑，反而给人很saturated的感觉，吃完整杯我连午饭都剩下了。RM2.50/cup
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| soya bean ice-cream |
4。Kim Gary-蜜糖柚子茶：除了有点太甜以外，个人觉得柚子皮还蛮好吃的，值得尝试！RM4.20/cup
5。去了怡保太平玩足两天，还参观了sepetang有名的货摊制作厂，最后在kuala kurau吃海鲜大餐。照片不在我这，下次po上来 …谢谢阿佳和家人热情款待，那晚我们吃下大得吓人的虾姑和螃蟹,撑着圆鼓鼓的肚子回家 =P
6。又去了QB新开张的tutti frutti：vanilla很不值，和平常外面吃到的没两样，RM1.00就可以买得到的McD cone更值得。其他的还不错，cransberry还有yogurt口味都很好吃。
今天mummy生日，生日快乐妈！！ I LOVE YOU muacksssssss!
尝试
整理照片时发现了这个---
两个月前的某天小妞我战战兢兢地做了人生一大重要尝试。
那不止是一时的冲动。
我其实在很久以前就想做，奈何无法克服心中对血的恐惧，别人问起时只能一再推辞。
一学姐这样写：终于赶得及在握大学生涯中捐一次血，不留下遗憾！
大略是这个意思嗯。不知道是不是这样激励了我？哈哈
就这样顺利拿到了专属的红色小本子，看到自己的名字和捐了300ml whole blood好是骄傲。像看恐怖片一样，对血的感觉我只能说是又爱又怕；话说之前在IK当trainee时鲜少有机会让我处理有关血浆的实验，那是心里多么地好奇。捐完血后没有晕手臂也没肿，证明我够强壮健康:)) 只是事后看到友人照下的针孔，粗粗的还蛮吓人，不懂还有没有勇气做第二次尝试？
那天回宿舍后还有营养餐。。。嘻嘻
两个月前的某天小妞我战战兢兢地做了人生一大重要尝试。
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| 看到那个红色小本子没？ |
那不止是一时的冲动。
我其实在很久以前就想做，奈何无法克服心中对血的恐惧，别人问起时只能一再推辞。
一学姐这样写：终于赶得及在握大学生涯中捐一次血，不留下遗憾！
大略是这个意思嗯。不知道是不是这样激励了我？哈哈
就这样顺利拿到了专属的红色小本子，看到自己的名字和捐了300ml whole blood好是骄傲。像看恐怖片一样，对血的感觉我只能说是又爱又怕；话说之前在IK当trainee时鲜少有机会让我处理有关血浆的实验，那是心里多么地好奇。捐完血后没有晕手臂也没肿，证明我够强壮健康:)) 只是事后看到友人照下的针孔，粗粗的还蛮吓人，不懂还有没有勇气做第二次尝试？
那天回宿舍后还有营养餐。。。嘻嘻
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
被捡拾的记忆
从老公堂姐手中，我接过了远从台湾送来的小沙漏。
小沙漏有两个面，一个印着好朋友的字眼，另一边有两只可爱的熊猫宝宝。
手里握着这个小东西，脑子里一晃神不禁想起两年前的九月天。想不起为什么了，大概因为真的舍不得，那个夜里盖着棉被哭得稀里哗啦，却还是在握着电话筒时假装很潇洒地说再见。我没有去机场送她，一边是课业忙不过来回不了槟城，二来怕自己控制不了情绪当场放声大哭。
那时候彼此相约要常联络，一开始还真是这样，就算隔了几个海洋也想从前一样聊个不亦乐乎。那时我也才大一开学，没有多久课业忙...渐渐的就没有了联系。就连当时离别那一份悸动和惆怅，也久久不曾浮现了。
过去的记忆，无论开心抑或悲伤，都将逐渐演变成美好的。过去无论那个人曾经怎么伤害怎么无礼，也已经是过眼云烟。或许他们教会我们并且协助我们成为今天的自己，有些曾经很重要，是不能被遗忘的。
人总是善变的。分开的那一天，没有想过有一天会渐渐习惯没有她，没有想过一个人其实也能够走得很好。毕竟这样一个难得的朋友，我暂时没有信心找到第二个。
一年半没见她，我们总是各忙各的，就算她回到国内我依然固执地忙着。
对不起，其实我很想她。
小沙漏有两个面，一个印着好朋友的字眼，另一边有两只可爱的熊猫宝宝。
手里握着这个小东西，脑子里一晃神不禁想起两年前的九月天。想不起为什么了，大概因为真的舍不得，那个夜里盖着棉被哭得稀里哗啦，却还是在握着电话筒时假装很潇洒地说再见。我没有去机场送她，一边是课业忙不过来回不了槟城，二来怕自己控制不了情绪当场放声大哭。
那时候彼此相约要常联络，一开始还真是这样，就算隔了几个海洋也想从前一样聊个不亦乐乎。那时我也才大一开学，没有多久课业忙...渐渐的就没有了联系。就连当时离别那一份悸动和惆怅，也久久不曾浮现了。
过去的记忆，无论开心抑或悲伤，都将逐渐演变成美好的。过去无论那个人曾经怎么伤害怎么无礼，也已经是过眼云烟。或许他们教会我们并且协助我们成为今天的自己，有些曾经很重要，是不能被遗忘的。
人总是善变的。分开的那一天，没有想过有一天会渐渐习惯没有她，没有想过一个人其实也能够走得很好。毕竟这样一个难得的朋友，我暂时没有信心找到第二个。
一年半没见她，我们总是各忙各的，就算她回到国内我依然固执地忙着。
对不起，其实我很想她。
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Something to Learn About.
At first I thought it was something bad, and totally an unlucky day.
What happened 5 hours ago still fresh in my mind and I'm gonna remember it, at least for now. And its repeating times and times in my limited space brain, its torturing... I think, I did something wrong today, it was actually my fault, and I'm trying to put blame on someone else. I don't know, but under the moment I just act to defend my own will and its just out of a natural feedback mechanism, to a sudden change.
To be frank I can't recalled back what had I said, I can't admit or deny anything...It's my fault or it's not? No one can tell, even hy also can't tell, even though she's just beside me this afternoon. Thanks to everyone trying so hard to comfort me, you know I really feel bad and don't have an idea on how to react, just got shocked after something like this had just happened. It just happened.
As I can't bare to accept it I phoned dad just after I arrived. I need someone to talk to and tell me everything's gonna be OK. Dad just listen and asked me not to think about that again, it's not important and it's gonna be a waste of time to think of someone like that. Maybe he's right, I can just ignore what happened and move on with my day.But I can't accept the fact that if I was the one that make mistake and now trying to put blame on other. Thats the reason why I keep on think and think.
Talked to Jia for almost an hour after dinner, while we actually short of time to study, they have to sit for another paper the next day. Its much more better now, at least I can calm down and looked back to what happened. I think I should think twice before speaking especially in public place, and to those that are not familiar to. Or else, I might just hurt someone or get myself hurt easily. It's out of one's mouth, to be or not, we wouldn't know if we hurt someone, and we can't expect whats happening next and probably causing serious consequences. There are too much outside...we cannot expect everything is in our hand.
If I was the one that did wrong, I would want to apologize. Sorry,I will beware next time and not to be rude to speak out something bad. Though I'm just kidding and never think it will be so serious.
I closed my eyes and pray, for everything I did today. This case will be my lesson today, I learnt and try to make changes, I hope myself will be all-right and keep fighting for my last paper. Just one more to go and get start with my sem break. Cheers dear, I LOVE YOU !
What happened 5 hours ago still fresh in my mind and I'm gonna remember it, at least for now. And its repeating times and times in my limited space brain, its torturing... I think, I did something wrong today, it was actually my fault, and I'm trying to put blame on someone else. I don't know, but under the moment I just act to defend my own will and its just out of a natural feedback mechanism, to a sudden change.
To be frank I can't recalled back what had I said, I can't admit or deny anything...It's my fault or it's not? No one can tell, even hy also can't tell, even though she's just beside me this afternoon. Thanks to everyone trying so hard to comfort me, you know I really feel bad and don't have an idea on how to react, just got shocked after something like this had just happened. It just happened.
As I can't bare to accept it I phoned dad just after I arrived. I need someone to talk to and tell me everything's gonna be OK. Dad just listen and asked me not to think about that again, it's not important and it's gonna be a waste of time to think of someone like that. Maybe he's right, I can just ignore what happened and move on with my day.But I can't accept the fact that if I was the one that make mistake and now trying to put blame on other. Thats the reason why I keep on think and think.
Talked to Jia for almost an hour after dinner, while we actually short of time to study, they have to sit for another paper the next day. Its much more better now, at least I can calm down and looked back to what happened. I think I should think twice before speaking especially in public place, and to those that are not familiar to. Or else, I might just hurt someone or get myself hurt easily. It's out of one's mouth, to be or not, we wouldn't know if we hurt someone, and we can't expect whats happening next and probably causing serious consequences. There are too much outside...we cannot expect everything is in our hand.
If I was the one that did wrong, I would want to apologize. Sorry,I will beware next time and not to be rude to speak out something bad. Though I'm just kidding and never think it will be so serious.
I closed my eyes and pray, for everything I did today. This case will be my lesson today, I learnt and try to make changes, I hope myself will be all-right and keep fighting for my last paper. Just one more to go and get start with my sem break. Cheers dear, I LOVE YOU !
Monday, May 2, 2011
不会就这样溶掉吧！
每天都在嚷嚷 : (
可是这里真的很热很热很热
拜托老天快点下场雨吧~
想吃冰淇淋冰淇淋冰淇淋~
不然来杯冷饮也好。。。
我热得不能专心念书了
救命~
救命啊~~
ergh
望梅止渴 T^T
可是这里真的很热很热很热
拜托老天快点下场雨吧~
想吃冰淇淋冰淇淋冰淇淋~
不然来杯冷饮也好。。。
我热得不能专心念书了
救命~
救命啊~~
ergh
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